Wednesday, November 21

Thoughts about life

Don't know if my behavior is proper or not. Does it matter at all? Why should I feel the responsibility? Initially it was his decision. It sounds like arraignment. No! Though through all the situation I feel a bit of hoplessness and bitter... May be 'cuz the education I'm getting and my status make me think about another side of the issue from time to time. In fact I should be prudent and wise and...
Oh, dash it!
Let's enjoy every moment of the life and take all events and prospects as they are: "We think too much and feel too little". I don't want to be a holy; I want to be as careless as a snowflake drifting and dancing with the wind no matter going to. I want to be reckless and amusing. I want to make other people feel free, light and happy. I want to do lovely things and perfomances, eat delicious food and dress up fancy. That's my life is about.
Although it makes me a bit superficial... a bit silly. And what if the clever and right girl is running away forever? Have I stiil a deep personality? Can I feel sympathy for someone, feel the loss, love?
Or have I at last found my style of live, behaviour, position yet and I shouldn't change myself?
So many questions...and no place to find the right answer.

With the great hope of finding the sign,
Irine

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